Not My Bikini Body-Unmet Goals

 

Aloha!

For my 30th birthday I went to Oahu with my sisters. We had a blast! Being a Seattle girl, it’s not hard to appreciate some sunshine. In the past, I would have totally splurged and eaten anything I wanted. Hey, it’s my birthday after all! But this trip was different. I realized I REALLY have changed. The biggest change happened in my mind and how I thought about food. I told myself I could have whatever I wanted, but to make it worth it. I didn’t even feel tempted by those sugary tropical drinks or the ice cream shop with waffle cones wafting through the air. On my actual birthday all I ended up wanting was chocolate covered macadamia nuts. Crazy right? But that’s what I truly wanted and what sounded good. I didn’t put pressure on myself to have a ridiculously indulgent dessert just because it was my birthday. (Big part of this revelation came from reading “Food, Freedom, Forever“)

On the flip side, I had set a goal for myself to wear a bikini in Hawaii for my 30th birthday. I’ve had this goal for over a year and I’ve slowly been working towards it. As my birthday drew closer, I kinda figured out that I wouldn’t be wearing that bikini. I initially felt deflated. I felt like I had been working so hard for so long and had hardly made any progress. It was discouraging to say the least. To me a bikini symbolizes finally feeling comfortable with my body. Kinda like a sense of freedom. Like I have nothing to hide. Like I don’t need to figure out just the right outfit to camouflage my belly fat. So wearing a bikini would have been a big deal, but alas, it didn’t happen. 

Check out my video for how I dealt with this major letdown. 

I’d love to hear how you deal with unmet goals! How do you bounce back? Comment below and tag me in your posts on Instagram @iamthefitbaker